Before you read the next paragraph and freakout, just know I still love Jesus and I love His kingdom and His church...
A little transparency never hurt anyone... Right...
I'm just not sure if I love Jesus like I use to... Let me qualify this statement—it doesn't mean that I don't love Jesus and neither does it mean that I don't want to love Jesus nor that I'm losing my faith in Him.
What I mean is at one time I had a laser focus and desire to follow Jesus with all my heart—no questions asked. Jesus was all that I needed. Back then things didn't distract me like they do now and I wasn't so focused on things I don't have.
Money, worries, my family, a some notoriety, the perfect living situation, dream job or dream vacation, everything on my wishlist at Amazon.com, sinful desires, and etc... There are times I want these things more than Jesus—I love these things more than Jesus.
Sometimes I find my lack of faith or lack of love in Jesus disturbing—I become my own worst enemy.
And that's just it—sometimes I focus to much on what I don't have in this world or what I am not—this dissatisfaction becomes the lens on how I view God, and this affects my relationship with Him.
I allow these things to get in the way of me just spending time with Jesus. I sometimes get the feeling I'm about to say Jesus isn't enough for me.
So often I forget I already have everything I will ever need from God.
God really is worthy of our worship and our love. Yesterday was a great reminder of this fact! The resurrection of Jesus helps us realize life has a whole new meaning and it changes our view of everything.
Jesus reminds us there is more beyond this world.
I know that if this life were to end at any moment, I'd be moving on to something far greater than I could ever image. Things would become just how they should be—just how God desires them to be.
Hope is found beyond this fragile life—we should never be mislead to believe this life is all there is.
Sometimes I need a WAKE UP like Easter Sunday to strengthen what remains and is about to die (Revelation 3:2).
We don't need to try harder, get busier, or accomplish more. We just need to focus and get back to what really matters—we need to spend time with Jesus and love Him.
To be honest, its not easy—there are strong temptations to want more and be more, but we must be diligent and persevere in loving Jesus and becoming more like Him.
There is no fancy way or magical formulas to spending time with Jesus—just be yourself... Seriously. And if you don't know how to be yourself, then ask God to help you be yourself.
Jesus is all we need.
Jesus is something bigger and something better than anything the world has to offer. Do you believe it?